Irreplaceable

It is hard to find the “one for us”. We have to sacrifice anything just to be happy. We have to face many challenges and problems, which are normal in a relationship. In addition, we have to decide quickly but surely so that we will not be hurt.
I am also a human being who knows how to love and the feelings to be loved. That is why I am happy every time I see my loved ones. That is also, why I feel sad and weary every time he turns back at me. Just like what I am experiencing now. At first, I do not know if this is what we called “love” but I am sure that I admired him. I do not know if he also feels the same way that I do but I am sure that we are friends.
This person is so cute in my eyes. I find him handsome every time I looked into his eyes while others just find him cute but not handsome. Ever since I never expected that, I would admire him. Then this day came when I realized that I was feeling something for him. When I cannot see him, it always makes my heart cry. When he would not give an attention to me, it would make me feel sad. In addition, there are times when I think of him at night and dream of him unexpectedly. I never think that my admiration to him would come to be like this. Then I cannot do anything no more. I just have to accept it that I am starting to fall in love with him.
There is really a point wherein people have to give up and then let go. That is what I am doing now. I am doing such a thing because I know that we are not for each other. In addition, I know that there is someone more than I am and I know that they are for each other. We have many differences and less similarity, that is why I am losing hope that someday he would also feel the same way that I do. I have also to give him up for he was in love with another girl but I am not saying that we had been in a relationship (both of us). Yeah it hurts but I have to accept it. In addition, I have to admit that I am the loser. I cannot say that I am already done with him because there are still some feelings that had not been gone yet but only a few. However, I am going to do the best just to forget my admiration and feelings for him and to tell to myself that I am done with him. Nonetheless, I will still remember him for he was one of those people who make my heartbeats faster. In addition, he was the first person that I fall in love with unexpectedly. In addition, maybe if there would be a chance, I will really confront him that I fall in love with him.